& I'll be th happiest girl in th world .
These days , ain't happy for me .
Sad , lonely , cast aside , shunned , unwanted mostly .
This is th 3rd day I'm not talking to her .
I wonder why my life is just so unfair .
Yes , I do have my ups and downs in life .
Having him as my bf is so wonderful .
Having my family as my family ... I'm not sure now .
Everyone's not talking to me except for my Dad .
Kakak ... well , let's just say she's cunning .
She becomes nice to me only when she wants something .
I keep telling myself not to give in to her .
But I guess I'm too weak . I helped her & look what I've got in return .
Got scolded , chucked aside , unwanted .
Yea , great .
Now , I can't wait to go to school .
2 more days Shaz . You can do it .
Being at school will keep me occupied though .
Keep me from thinking about my problems at home .
What I want is just ...
her to treat me nicely .
Treat me th same as how she treat kakak & arif .
Is is so hard for her ? Just one mistake from me ,
& she goes all ballistic about it .
Until to th extent that she doesn't speak to me for 3 DAYS .
Bloody hell . I just can't understand her .
I don't care if she reads this .
I want her to read this . I hope she does .
I just want to be loved . Is it so hard ?
Yes , I'm greedy . Greedy for attention at home .
So what ?